How alone can a human being be?
How much time spent in solitude during an average existence is sufficient to a human?
Are we all alone in the end?
During our childhood, Saturn is the helping hand holding us when learning to walk. Saturn is our every fall while we are struggling to make our first steps. And Saturn is also we, the children, a burden, responsibility, and the reason of restrictions in the parents’ lives.
We even know that it is in the best interest of our future, to adopt those messages we are getting from our parents, school teachers, teachers and all other authorities in the children’s realm – we are Saturn.
Knowing that we are the problem, that everything would be different if we weren’t there- because mother is putting up with father because of the child, the father doesn’t have time for mother because of the child, they are both doing jobs they don’t like because of the child, they are sad, unhappy, they do not laugh, it is hard for them- all this because of the child. We also hear that we are best when not around, when we are in our rooms as if we didn’t exist, are quiet unless asked to speak, in fact that we are smarter when we are silent. We keep hearing that all the crystal vases and newly painted wall are more important than our scorched knees, that the bed is more important then our joy when jumping on it, that we are not allowed to cry because it angers them, and if in pain to – endure, endure, endure. That we are not allowed to be children, that we should look up to some other child, be like them or like our brother/ sister, and not be what we are. Whatever we do we are guilty, that we are never good enough, that we shouldn’t be thinking about ourselves but about how others feel – them for example, brothers, sisters or the neighbors. The others are the only things that matter. Forget what we want and do what they want just to please them. And if we do what we want, do not forget to be grateful and remember that it wouldn’t be possible it wasn’t for them, as if our role in it was completely irrelevant. Be strong, because only those who cry are weak, and those who are weak are cowards. Do not disturb them while they’re working, sleeping, or eating, they do not have time to look at our paintings from which the paint is still dripping because we couldn’t wait for it to dry, joyfully rushing to show them…but in a moment, just let them finish their lunch. Do not embarrass them when visiting someone. Do not make them feel ashamed in front of teachers… for futher reading go to my page >>